When it All Became Clear

18 year old Suse projected an image of being happy and sure of herself without a fear or care in the world. A beautiful exterior that hid the hell and demons that were living on the inside. Uncertain of where it came from or what it was, there was a self destructive energy that had been growing since puberty.

I had zero connection to Self, Source, Spirit (or another name for It). I didn’t believe in anything. Those are stupid make belief stories people tell themselves to make themselves feel better - was the attitude. I couldn’t see the point of it all.

Rage and anger brewed at a constant within. The more I learned and witnessed the horrors and inequity of our societies, governments and corporations the more I didn’t want to be a part of it.

Resistance 101

I did plenty of things in my youth to hurt myself and the people around me. Not a time I take pride in but much needed lessons in the making.

Fast forward 3 years and BOOM the break, the ego collapse, the awakening, the curtains lifts, the blinders are off.

I can see it all. The love, the beauty, the harmony, the destruction, the disorder, the decay all at once.

Acceptance 101

Grateful for this journey of life. All of it. I see beauty even in the ugly parts now because I know something precious is about to unfold. Love is always here. Sometimes it just needs to be remembered and uncovered. Love is spiri. It can be found within you and all around you. Love is not something that is given or taken away. It’s always here. I hope you can find this love for yourself if you haven’t yet because when you do your life will be everything you have ever dreamed of.

Yes, I continue to learn and unlearn. Yes, there are many struggling. Yes, I am a privileged white woman. Yes, I continue to contribute to communities and causes for equity, abolition and systemic change. Yes, I am dedicated to empowering people to heal themselves and their communities. Yes, I will continue to share my healing journey.